Second guessing....

I keep thinking my life should be a certain way.....but it's not. I second guess myself all the time, do I want kids or not, do I want to live my life here or move somewhere else, do I want to keep teaching or am I meant to do something else. I keep thinking about all the things I can do in my life but I second guess myself and think that I can't do it. I find it funny that we teach our kids that they can do anything but we get stuck in our own role in life. So I think what I'm planning on doing is taking a chance....trying those things that I've always thought I couldn't do.

My first goal is to try and be a better partner in my relationship and help more. I tend to be lazy and afraid to try things that I won't be good at and anything that is hard work is usually out of the question. So, I want to help with our garden and yard work....I want to help to compost and reduce our waste. I want to say yes when I really feel like saying no. So....we will see how it goes, but I want to be stronger.